STPM part 2

in about 15 minutes we're there...
sitting down talking to wai hung and the others
about how scary we felt
and how we wish our result was
after a very long speech (argh~)
we started to line up to get our result
i gotta admit at that time i felt really nervous but a little happy
when i got the envelope ying see snatch it from me
wanting to know how did i do
don feel like opening it but i knew i had to
so in the end i went to the corner with wai hung and opened it
the result left me motionless
i don't know how to respond
all i know is i don't wanna stay there any longer
went to my car,started the engine
and tears started to flow out
sad is not even close enough to describe how i felt
called mummy, cried even more when heard her voice
must be disappointing
so i suck it up and drove home,withour chi han this time
cos i know i was not stable

and true enough i don't remember the journey home
the only thing i remember was a silver Audi A4(the new one)
and the urge to steer towards it... ramming it hard
then i remembered.. i'm driving my dad's mini...

finally reached home...saw my mom... said sorry...
and more crying..
the whole day was a blur...
and the day after that i felt like i lost something
like i don't want to do anything else... i felt lost
and the best part is my dad's coming back from work that day
not knowing what to expect.. i was once again scared...

dad came back around 8p.m
he didn't say anything... he just smiled at me and said it's ok
tears rolled down again... i wasn't expecting this
i'm sure they expect me to be a Uni student
dad ask me to check out the local college
see which course i want to take
i made a silent vow..
i'm gonna do it right this time

STPM part 1

After knowing that the STPM result is coming out on the 25th Feb
i cant sleep well for that few nights
on the night before,it's even worst...
i was so scared and nervous that i had a fever
so i took off from work early and went home...
the whole journey home was a torture
the whole train was packed with ppl with stinky armpit
showing their 'amazon forest'
fuck!
assholes kept pushing and pushing
and i felt like i'm gonna throw up anytime

after some 45 minutes i'm finally out of that place
fever getting worst so i went to the doctor after dinner
came home,eat medicine and tatz it 4 the night

the next morning i was planning to wake up later
but i couldn't fall asleep after that
so i gave up and tidied my bed
went down for breakfast....
2 pieces of bread was all i can handle..
and more and i swear i'll puke

getting nervous as i watch the clock...
12 o'clock the result coming out (according to wai yuen)
it's only 9...
so i decided to wash my mini~!!
to get my mind off
wash wash wash
b4 i knew it it's 11-ish
so i went upstairs,cleaned up and off i go
first stop i need to fetch chi han
then off we go
along the journey we were saying how nervous we are
and he was like 'why r u driving so fast?! cannot wait is it?'
i was so nervous that i can't let go of the gas paddle