Saturday

first i would like to wish lee yen
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY!!!!
You've grown older by a year again~!!!!
haha~

today was the first day of my form 6 holiday
a one and a half month hliday
yeah~~
went for our L6FM's class party
except it's not in class
instead we went timesquare to celebrate
we were suppose to meet up at 1.00
but thiru,hari and hock leong came late
thiru came at around 1.30
then hock leong came at around 2.30...
juz when we finished eating our lunch
hari came after we decided to pay our bill..
swt...
we then went to queue for movie tickets
sam kept saying she wants to watch Madagascar 2
but none of us wants to watch
so we choose the coffin instead
i'm not a fan of horror movie so i declined
they ended up watching the 5.45 movie instead of 3.45
cos wanted to teman me
felt so guilty la....
hang around... saw lee yen and her friends...
i must say~ one of lee yen's friend is kinda pretty
tall...but pretty... haha
i saw fu sing with two girl too
he was so shocked...
as if he doesn't want anyone to know

hung around the arcade
played one round of throwing basketball and one round of racing car
cost me to bucks...
damn~ what a way to waste money
after arcade we went to mcd to sit and talk crap
hock leong was re-filling the cup like crazy
then it's almost time 4 them to get into the cinema
so i make my leave too...

kinda tiring... tot can rest when reach home
but instead i had to go out 4 dinner with family
and then went shopping with mom..
until around 8.30...
ok... i'm gonna KO ald... that's all for now

Friday

today was the last day of my lower sixth form life...
starting from next year it's gonna be a tough year..
cos it'll be upper sixth... which means by the end of next year there's gonna be STPM...

ish.... so fast another major exam... shit la...
life is like full of these exams...
not happy with it at all... not one bit...
what to do... life goes on...

wake up at 6.00 as usual got ready, had light breakfast
and ready to go by 6.35...
stupid lrt... so slow today.. was late to school but who cares...
no people jaga also...
went the the lecture hall to meet up the guys
cos the form6 block is being quarantined for STPM...
morning morning already felt boring
so yip,hari,thiru and i started playing tai di...
haihz...budak-budak zaman sekarang...morning morning playing cards..

the quick game which we thought will end quick as there'll be physic class
turned out the opposite...
we played it the whole day... -_-"
cos teacher was busy doing some report card thingy for the lower forms
so we played until school ends...

after school... i went for lunch with thiru and the gang
while chi han stayed back at school doing god knows what
eat,talk and the walk around until it's time 4 tuition
meet up with chi han...teman him eat..
then went kolej bandar and meet up with wei han...
just when i thought i wont see her in that time session...
she came in... i don't know what to do expect act busy
started the lesson as usual
but felt uncomfortable as she sat a row behind me...

managed to ignore her 4 most of the lessons...
then quickly rush out of the room and off to the lift
so that i can avoid the embarrassment
but unfortunately her friends and her caught up
the worst was we were in the same lift...
gosh... it felt like forever
so after the lift opened, we rushed out...

and walked quickly towards the nearest lrt station...
hoping that the train will come before they catch up
but unfortunately AGAIN... the train seem to come after they reach the station
and it stopped at the same spot as me and her
ish!! we had to go into the same box...
i tried to act nothing throughout the journey
it was hard... really hard...
and the journey felt long...
gosh... it's been a rather tiring day....
trying to avoid her... but in the end failed....
damn it!!!

Friday

rejection have always followed me whenever i liked a girl
and the last time i confessed my love a year ago was no exception
depression took over me as i suffer from yet another rejection...
it was longer than i expected...
a year has passed and yet i am still within it's shadow
i gave up in trying for love
until i met you..
you were just another friend's friend whom i saw at tuition...
u look ordinary and yet extraordinary...
didn't have much feeling for you until recently
a fool i was to think that i can get to know you better
is it an act of stupidity or plain innocent?
just when i thought i might have picked up the pieces of me
from my previous heartbreak
u came and shattered my heart...
two blows in two years...
i'm lucky that i survived...
maybe it was all my fault...
to believe that we must be brave when facing the one you love...
i took up the courage to walk over to you
the feeling of excitement and nervous
that i always read from books or novel
and that i had once felt... it felt good, to be honest...
and there i was standing in front of you...
staring at you and you staring back...
with my heart racing so so fast
i ask for the chance to know you
and was rejected by you politely...
as polite as it may seem i kept calm and said goodbye
but deep down inside...
i felt the sudden stop of heartbeat when u rejected
it felt weird cos i never believed all these emotions
when i read in books... ironic...
as it happened to me.. the whole trip home... i was spacing out...
unsure to be shocked? sad? or regret for my sudden act of so called 'bravery'?
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