STPM part 2

in about 15 minutes we're there...
sitting down talking to wai hung and the others
about how scary we felt
and how we wish our result was
after a very long speech (argh~)
we started to line up to get our result
i gotta admit at that time i felt really nervous but a little happy
when i got the envelope ying see snatch it from me
wanting to know how did i do
don feel like opening it but i knew i had to
so in the end i went to the corner with wai hung and opened it
the result left me motionless
i don't know how to respond
all i know is i don't wanna stay there any longer
went to my car,started the engine
and tears started to flow out
sad is not even close enough to describe how i felt
called mummy, cried even more when heard her voice
must be disappointing
so i suck it up and drove home,withour chi han this time
cos i know i was not stable

and true enough i don't remember the journey home
the only thing i remember was a silver Audi A4(the new one)
and the urge to steer towards it... ramming it hard
then i remembered.. i'm driving my dad's mini...

finally reached home...saw my mom... said sorry...
and more crying..
the whole day was a blur...
and the day after that i felt like i lost something
like i don't want to do anything else... i felt lost
and the best part is my dad's coming back from work that day
not knowing what to expect.. i was once again scared...

dad came back around 8p.m
he didn't say anything... he just smiled at me and said it's ok
tears rolled down again... i wasn't expecting this
i'm sure they expect me to be a Uni student
dad ask me to check out the local college
see which course i want to take
i made a silent vow..
i'm gonna do it right this time

STPM part 1

After knowing that the STPM result is coming out on the 25th Feb
i cant sleep well for that few nights
on the night before,it's even worst...
i was so scared and nervous that i had a fever
so i took off from work early and went home...
the whole journey home was a torture
the whole train was packed with ppl with stinky armpit
showing their 'amazon forest'
fuck!
assholes kept pushing and pushing
and i felt like i'm gonna throw up anytime

after some 45 minutes i'm finally out of that place
fever getting worst so i went to the doctor after dinner
came home,eat medicine and tatz it 4 the night

the next morning i was planning to wake up later
but i couldn't fall asleep after that
so i gave up and tidied my bed
went down for breakfast....
2 pieces of bread was all i can handle..
and more and i swear i'll puke

getting nervous as i watch the clock...
12 o'clock the result coming out (according to wai yuen)
it's only 9...
so i decided to wash my mini~!!
to get my mind off
wash wash wash
b4 i knew it it's 11-ish
so i went upstairs,cleaned up and off i go
first stop i need to fetch chi han
then off we go
along the journey we were saying how nervous we are
and he was like 'why r u driving so fast?! cannot wait is it?'
i was so nervous that i can't let go of the gas paddle

The Lost Of a Legend

26th June 2009
it is a sad day for all as it is the death of Michael Jackson
The King of Pop....
it is truly a lost to the world
but his songs will last forever
deep within our hearts
RIP King of Pop

Thursday

sadness and frustration filled my heart
yet another quarrel between my parents
but this time it is not the same quarrel as last time
it is not a quarrel that can be settled over dinner
with a bunch of jokes
no... this time it's something different
this time it's a cold war between two person
both refusing to talk to each other
leaving my sister and i to send their message
it doesn't feel nice
i wonder when will it end...
returning to the old joking family
haihz... no mood ald...

Sunday

YEAR
2009
it's here already....
school's gonna reopen tomorrow...
it's gonna be a very busy year
damn it...
it's all gonna be study,tuition and more study and then more tuition...
hope that this year i will be more serious towards my studies...
cos STPM this year...
study for one and a half year already...
if i didn't get a good result....
then i'll be wasting my time all this time...
but i hope that this year will be better than last year....
cos there's quite a lot of unhappy stuff happened last year
looking back now...
i think we all have grown a lot
learned a lot
experience a lot
i guess that's life...
we learn, experience and then...
WE GROW...

Monday (night)

This Evening i found out that Amelia's dad
was admitted to the hospital cos of heart attack...
i do not know the whole story and i need not to know...
For it is not important to know of the cause
but to hope for the result...
and i sincerely hope that he will be ok..
and will be able to get back on his feet soon
so that Amelia and her family won't need to worry
cos i know i'll be very scared and worried
if anyone of my family members get admitted into hospital

To God,
i may not be a faithful believer
and that i may be praying for your help only when i'm in need
but please hear me out when i pray...
for Amelia Ho's dad to be healthy...
and just in case your reading this...
please bless my family member and all my loved ones
a healthy life...
especially my grandpa...

P.s : God... i hope you read blogs... i know mine sucks but please... hear me out...
cos that is my deepest wish... especially the part about Amelia's dad cos he needs it the most at the moment...

Monday

I like taking photo of the sky....
every movement.. every colour of the sky....
they seem to have a title... a theme...
i like looking at them...
it lets my imagination runs wild...
tis is one of my recent photo that i took on my trip to europe
i love this

it is as if... the light is struggling to come out...
jut like life...
sometimes there's the dark part in life where we suffer failure
but this photo reminds me of the struggle
the struggle of us... from the dark times....
it signifies hope...
anyway... it's just my thought...
tell me what do u think....