Monday (night)

This Evening i found out that Amelia's dad
was admitted to the hospital cos of heart attack...
i do not know the whole story and i need not to know...
For it is not important to know of the cause
but to hope for the result...
and i sincerely hope that he will be ok..
and will be able to get back on his feet soon
so that Amelia and her family won't need to worry
cos i know i'll be very scared and worried
if anyone of my family members get admitted into hospital

To God,
i may not be a faithful believer
and that i may be praying for your help only when i'm in need
but please hear me out when i pray...
for Amelia Ho's dad to be healthy...
and just in case your reading this...
please bless my family member and all my loved ones
a healthy life...
especially my grandpa...

P.s : God... i hope you read blogs... i know mine sucks but please... hear me out...
cos that is my deepest wish... especially the part about Amelia's dad cos he needs it the most at the moment...

Monday

I like taking photo of the sky....
every movement.. every colour of the sky....
they seem to have a title... a theme...
i like looking at them...
it lets my imagination runs wild...
tis is one of my recent photo that i took on my trip to europe
i love this

it is as if... the light is struggling to come out...
jut like life...
sometimes there's the dark part in life where we suffer failure
but this photo reminds me of the struggle
the struggle of us... from the dark times....
it signifies hope...
anyway... it's just my thought...
tell me what do u think....

Thursday

it's christmas~!!!
so happy when i woke up this morning...
the first thing came to my mind was
the scene of snow back when i'm at europe...
so cool wei~
if only i stayed there until christmas...
it would be so cool
white christmas y'all!!!

imagine this when u woke up early in the morning....

so cool~~

just like last year and the year before...
christmas wasn't anything so special
cos my family isn't much of a christmas people
i mean my parents never really celebrated christmas
so every year my siter and i would wake up in the morning
hoping that there'll be nice tv programs
sometimes i hope i can do something on christmas
it sucks in a way
to stay at home on christmas
moreover my dad has to go overseas on this very day
so much for family holiday~

anyway... merry christmas to all~!!!

Thursday

This is the day...
i'm going Europe tonight~!!!
yes~!!!!
i'm all ready for the big trip
wahaha... so nervous...
cant wait....
going to sit 13 hours of flight...
damn long wei~
anyway.. here's some photos of my stuff


my suitcase... haha... a lot of stuff... nearly can't close it...



my food~!!! juz in case i felt hungry in the middle of the night...


IKO IKO~!!!! IKO ROCKZ~!!!!!


Mamee~!!!! the perfect snack when your hungry~!!!


my 'winter gear'... to protect me from the cold weather


the yellow jacket which will be keeping me warm~~

Tuesday

This song is sooo nice... so meaningful....
reminds me of boon seng...
i'll always remember u my man...

Stand Up To Cancer - Just Stand Up

Beyonce:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust it off
Don't let up

Sheryl Crow:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyonce:
You need to know...

Chorus (Sheryl Crow):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up

Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé:
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust if off
Don't let up

LeAnn Rimes:
Don't you know you

Natasha Bedingfield:
Can go

LeAnn Rimes:
Be your own

Natasha Bedingfield:
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

[Chorus-All]
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

[Chorus-All]
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in ya
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in ya
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
Find it within you
Find it within

Through It All, Just Stand Up!

Saturday

first i would like to wish lee yen
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY!!!!
You've grown older by a year again~!!!!
haha~

today was the first day of my form 6 holiday
a one and a half month hliday
yeah~~
went for our L6FM's class party
except it's not in class
instead we went timesquare to celebrate
we were suppose to meet up at 1.00
but thiru,hari and hock leong came late
thiru came at around 1.30
then hock leong came at around 2.30...
juz when we finished eating our lunch
hari came after we decided to pay our bill..
swt...
we then went to queue for movie tickets
sam kept saying she wants to watch Madagascar 2
but none of us wants to watch
so we choose the coffin instead
i'm not a fan of horror movie so i declined
they ended up watching the 5.45 movie instead of 3.45
cos wanted to teman me
felt so guilty la....
hang around... saw lee yen and her friends...
i must say~ one of lee yen's friend is kinda pretty
tall...but pretty... haha
i saw fu sing with two girl too
he was so shocked...
as if he doesn't want anyone to know

hung around the arcade
played one round of throwing basketball and one round of racing car
cost me to bucks...
damn~ what a way to waste money
after arcade we went to mcd to sit and talk crap
hock leong was re-filling the cup like crazy
then it's almost time 4 them to get into the cinema
so i make my leave too...

kinda tiring... tot can rest when reach home
but instead i had to go out 4 dinner with family
and then went shopping with mom..
until around 8.30...
ok... i'm gonna KO ald... that's all for now

Friday

today was the last day of my lower sixth form life...
starting from next year it's gonna be a tough year..
cos it'll be upper sixth... which means by the end of next year there's gonna be STPM...

ish.... so fast another major exam... shit la...
life is like full of these exams...
not happy with it at all... not one bit...
what to do... life goes on...

wake up at 6.00 as usual got ready, had light breakfast
and ready to go by 6.35...
stupid lrt... so slow today.. was late to school but who cares...
no people jaga also...
went the the lecture hall to meet up the guys
cos the form6 block is being quarantined for STPM...
morning morning already felt boring
so yip,hari,thiru and i started playing tai di...
haihz...budak-budak zaman sekarang...morning morning playing cards..

the quick game which we thought will end quick as there'll be physic class
turned out the opposite...
we played it the whole day... -_-"
cos teacher was busy doing some report card thingy for the lower forms
so we played until school ends...

after school... i went for lunch with thiru and the gang
while chi han stayed back at school doing god knows what
eat,talk and the walk around until it's time 4 tuition
meet up with chi han...teman him eat..
then went kolej bandar and meet up with wei han...
just when i thought i wont see her in that time session...
she came in... i don't know what to do expect act busy
started the lesson as usual
but felt uncomfortable as she sat a row behind me...

managed to ignore her 4 most of the lessons...
then quickly rush out of the room and off to the lift
so that i can avoid the embarrassment
but unfortunately her friends and her caught up
the worst was we were in the same lift...
gosh... it felt like forever
so after the lift opened, we rushed out...

and walked quickly towards the nearest lrt station...
hoping that the train will come before they catch up
but unfortunately AGAIN... the train seem to come after they reach the station
and it stopped at the same spot as me and her
ish!! we had to go into the same box...
i tried to act nothing throughout the journey
it was hard... really hard...
and the journey felt long...
gosh... it's been a rather tiring day....
trying to avoid her... but in the end failed....
damn it!!!

Friday

rejection have always followed me whenever i liked a girl
and the last time i confessed my love a year ago was no exception
depression took over me as i suffer from yet another rejection...
it was longer than i expected...
a year has passed and yet i am still within it's shadow
i gave up in trying for love
until i met you..
you were just another friend's friend whom i saw at tuition...
u look ordinary and yet extraordinary...
didn't have much feeling for you until recently
a fool i was to think that i can get to know you better
is it an act of stupidity or plain innocent?
just when i thought i might have picked up the pieces of me
from my previous heartbreak
u came and shattered my heart...
two blows in two years...
i'm lucky that i survived...
maybe it was all my fault...
to believe that we must be brave when facing the one you love...
i took up the courage to walk over to you
the feeling of excitement and nervous
that i always read from books or novel
and that i had once felt... it felt good, to be honest...
and there i was standing in front of you...
staring at you and you staring back...
with my heart racing so so fast
i ask for the chance to know you
and was rejected by you politely...
as polite as it may seem i kept calm and said goodbye
but deep down inside...
i felt the sudden stop of heartbeat when u rejected
it felt weird cos i never believed all these emotions
when i read in books... ironic...
as it happened to me.. the whole trip home... i was spacing out...
unsure to be shocked? sad? or regret for my sudden act of so called 'bravery'?
.................................

Monday

It's Deepavali Day!!! Holiday!!!
started off the day by waking up at 7.15am...
brush teeth and so on... and off i go..
basketball with me buddies~!
once again... i was the first to reach basketball court...
shoot some hoops... while waiting for sim and all..
finally came one by one after 7.50....
owned the whole basketball court... and played until around 11.00...
came up with a plan of having a band at sim's place...
but before that, went to Alison for breakfast...
crap around until people in the restaurant stared at us...
then sim drop me off at my house...
get ready my stuff... then nicholas picked me up to wai li's house...
and off we go to sim's place... freaking far wei... cheras...
we choose his place cos basically he's the only one with a drum set...
got there... started to talk about music and a band is formed...
but short of ppl tho... (i'm the violinist)
discuss about 'the future' of our band.. then played ping pong...
woah~ i got owned by sim's mom... she's good~
then sim's parents invited us to join the 4 dinner...
bak kut teh~!! at puchong...
eat,talk and suggesting stupid names for our band...
we tried to get 'inspired' by the signs around us..
from 'bak kut teh' to 'self-service hot water refill'...
which we later think it's too long for a band name...
plus... it ain't easy to remember... u hear that sim~!
end up with the name 'null & vios' (if i din spell wrong)...
all in all the whole day was a great fun...
hope we can have our next band meeting soon...

Saturday

today i finally get to drive all by myself...
after getting my license for around half a year
i was finally given the chance to drive alone...
the feeling of nobody looking at u from the passenger seat was....
AWESOME~!!
i started my drive by going to fetch chi han... he felt uneasy tho... haha
then off we go... to Ridz's Hari Raya Open House...
luckily i went there early... still got some parking space...
i had to double check everything to make sure i dont screw my chance of driving again..
had fun eating at ridz's house... sim, wilson and i was eating like nobody's business...
we kept eat and adding and eating until we were so full we had to go 4 walk at the park..
we were like kids when we reach the park...
started running towards the swing and see-saw...
played swing and see-saw while talking about our dreams in the past
and the fun times we had...
an awesome evening... looking at the bright red sky...
then fetched ivan, ren yi and shaun back home...
my first time driving so many people too...
and also my first time driving at night... nearly 4gotten to on the car lights...

Wednesday (2nd post)

woah~ cool....
amelia ho blogged about me in return for me blogging about her....
wahaha... cool~
tho only a few sentences... haha

Wednesday

Amelia Ho....
the cutest, most shugar girl i've meet...
literally, known her through web...
u caught my eye with your funny and interesting hobby,
cam whoring... u are forever so gorgeous in your photos...
u know how to smile, to pose and to make fun(even through photos)...
the first every girl-friend that i added through friendster that lasted so long...
honestly speaking,
the purpose of me adding u back then was cos i think your cute
and...
i wanted to 'hit' on u...(little kid's fantasy,to find a cute and hot gf)
slowly did i know that u have become a great friend of mine...
a friend who taught me to be confident, to act wild and showed me a world which i could not enjoy... i was really jealous when i saw your photos of partying and drinking alcohol and not to mention.... clubbing~!!!!
for a guy... i seem to be so normal compare to yours... u have a crazy BUT fun life...
don't let ANYONE or ANYTHING stop u from being what u were...
cos your special... and u, me and your other friends know it....
^^

Friday

today yet another friend of mine went overseas for study...
dear ee sien... i wish u the best of luck in Japan...
study hard and intro some hot japanese girl to me k? ^^
be sure to keep contact...

Thrusday

tonight i went to a farewell gathering organized for ee sien... she' goin Japan 4 studies... and god knows when will she be back...
a gorgeous girl with a great personality...
very soft-spoken and polite... sometimes too polite tho...
cos sometimes she speaks so soft that i cant seem to hear what she said...
it's sad to know that she'll be leaving us to study overseas....
EE SIEN~!!!
I hope we'll see each other soon...

Monday

yet another gathering with the guys from secondary school.... its kinda hard to gather together now that everyone has their own studies to busy... a gathering like this may not last after we started working... so we cherish these gathering a lot...

our gathering start off with a simple phone call from ridzwan asking me to go he's house along with ivan and nicholas... reach his house around 12.20pm.. play a few game of pool.. damn i hate nic,trashed me!! damn u!! soon after that liang yi joined the fun and in half an hour time sim join us too... getting more and more people... sim suggested us to go play badminton and ping pong at bukit jalil club... so off we go... went there.. got trashed by nic in badminton and ping pong AGAIN... darn i hate u nic!!! y must u beat me in everything regarding ball!!

went to ivan's house at around 6.00... he left us at his house while he go fetch his mom... we ran-sack his house... then went 4 dinner at pizza hut... stupid pizza workers!! servise so poor and yet we have to pay 4 their servise fee which is like 7 bucks!! and what servise did we get?! wrong order and slow food!! so much 4 'fast food'... got fed-up... so we left and when 4 mamak instead...

A Lost Of Friend

14th September... a day of joy for Chinese as it was the mid-autumn festival... a day where family gather for mooncakes and lantern playing... as the old chinese saying... 月圆人团圆 which means reunion... but unfortunately on this very day one family was shocked by the news that their family member died... to me he was a senior who had gone through life, a team member who is very good in football and a friend who gave me advise about life...
i will always remember you my friend... although we've only known each other of only 3 years but i will forever cherish the futsal moments we had together.... thanks for playing wif us even though our team may not be a great team... i will always remember your view of life and the will to live a greater and better life for yourself or for those around... it is a lifetime lesson that u have taught me...
rest in peace my friend... eventhough u are not here physically... but the memories of u will always stay with us... Eternally...

Photos Of The Beauty Pageant

After the beauty pageant... from left is yuen phing,sim,ivy,joanne, our miss beauty pageant Joan Tan Pui Leng,her boyfriend Desmond,yan lin,me and wen chun

Pui Leng and her dear Desmond... she looks gorgeous in that evening gown...

The whole lot before entering the convention hall... the girl in green is Pui Leng's sister..

Pui Leng during the Q&A section... look at her pose... such confident...










look out! here she comes~!! JOAN TAN PUI LENG IS ON THE STAGE~~!!!!! YEAH!!!!








We will always be by your side Pui Leng!!!

The Beauty Pageant

Went to a beauty pageant contest organized by a church name City Harvest (if I'm not mistaken) at Sunway Pyramid convention center yesterday... our very friend Miss Joan Tan Pui Leng made it to the top 10 finalist... so Ivy,Yan Lin,Joanne,Yuen Phing,Sim,Chee Hao,me and also her boyfriend Desmond went to cheer 4 her... Pui Leng's family was there too... we started shouting her name like mad man when the screen showed a short clip of her.. IN A SPORT OUTFIT!!! damn~! she look sexy... as she walk up the stage i was like.. gosh! she looked so gorgeous in the evening gown,make up and also the silky hair... she look so damn freaking gorgeous that i almost forgot what i was there to do... TO CHEER!!!! yeah!!! JOAN!!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! after the Q&A section it was the prize giving moment that we have all been waiting for... we waited so nervously and finally the MC announced the 1st runner up is.... JOAN TAN!!!! the whole lot of us jumped up in joy and started cheering like mad man... although she only got 1st runner up but she is still the prettiest in our heart.. c'mon she's only 18! there's still a lot of chance for her to shine... after the beauty pageant contest.. we enjoyed some cool and rock christian songs played by a band from the church City Harvest... after the cheering and dancing along with the song we walked out the room and started looking for Pui Leng.. we talk and talk and joked.. she even pat my head.. ^^ -smiling in joy- it's not everyday i got pat by a beauty pageant you know... too bad my seat was quite far away from the stage so i couldn't get any photo of her... but i'll ask from Desmond and hopefully I'll be able to upload it as soon as possible... PUI LENG YOUR THE BEST!!!! LUV YA!!

7 girls who changed my life

everyone has a one person who did something that changed their way of thinking or even their life... but mine is a bit different... i have 7 people who changed my way of thinking towards life or rather 7 girls who taught me some valuable lessons...

First up is my dear 'sister'... known her since form 2.. she's truly a god-believer... everything she does or do will always be according to lessons she learned from The HOLY BIBLE... although I'm not a Christian but knowing her makes me feel that somehow somewhere there's a mighty God looking after everyone of us... and that we should always be grateful as we are all blessed.. one way or another.. she is also the one who taught me that Christian songs are not all slow and boring.. it can also be very very ROCK!! ROCK ON GIRL!!

Next up is a girl name koo ai ying.. she was my working colleague during my part-time work while waiting for SPM result... she's quite an emo queen.. she's been emo-ing since the first time i meet her.. if there's anything that she taught me, it'll be the harsh working life that she experienced.. being same age as me.. she's been working since form 3.. thus,she always reminds me that the world outside is different from what i known and that people can sometimes be decisive.. it's weird but she's the one that taught me not to trust people easily..


The third person who inspired me is she.. she is as lovely as her name.. Angel Lam Yan Yan.. yup! Angel~~ we once learn violin from the same teacher... but she is far too talented and she practice everyday without fail unlike me, so she bypass me in no time... although she is only 15, she's already a great violinist.. i can still remember my first orchestra performance with her and some other friends.. the way she dress caught the eye of my mom and i.. she is super hot with that leather mini skirt and pure white blouse.. sadly she moved to Australia early this year.. it'll be a long time until i can see her again.. she gave me a purpose to sharpen my violin skills so that i can catch up with her... Yan Yan i wont lost to you!! you better come back soon!! miss you girl!!

I always believe that meeting friends online will never work especially when that person is a hot chick.. but Amelia Ho a.k.a Little Miss Princess Shuga Shorty proves me wrong, she is the first person that i meet online that I'm still in contact with while others just disappeared.. i never expected that meeting friends online can last for more than 4 months but i have been friends with her for more than a year.. she's like my latest 'whatz up' magazine.. i get all the hit topic like latest music and all from her.. in other words.. she changed my life by keeping me updated.. lolz... oh! and she likes to snap photos of herself.. she call herself a cam whore but i say your just being confident of yourself.. cam whore is kinda rude..


She is yet another person whom i meet online and continued to keep in contact up until now...Janice Goh is the name.. she's a girl who has very low self-esteem compare to Amelia... the first thing she'll ask when we chat is asking me whether the girl that she meet in friendster pretty or not.. sometimes she worries too much... and yet she is a good friend to talk to but mostly i'm the one who listen.. she is pretty when she smiles but because she worries too much.. the lovely smile of hers is hard to be seen.. :p from her i've learned how to be patient and to listen to other people's problems.. and I'm getting addicted to it.. makes me feel like I'm needed..


As you can see this gorgeous lady here is very gorgeous indeed.. she's the first girl that i took up my courage to walk over to take her e-mail address.. not cos i had a crush on her but cos of her lovely and friendly smile.. she was in the same tuition center as i am when we're form 4.. i can still remember the first thing my friend said was 'wow! she is gorgeous' when she first walk into the room.. fortunately she sat in front of me and shockingly we had quite a lot to talk about.. we shared and exchanged songs and books which we like and not to mention the love for Christian songs AND watching live orchestra!!.. all in all.. she taught me that someone has to make the first step in knowing others.. if i wasn't brave enough to walk over and ask for her e-mail address.. i would not have meet such a good friend..


Lastly is Joan Tan Pui Leng a.k.a Ah Tan(the one on the right).. she's been my classmate since form 3.. she is a gorgeous lady with a loud laugh.. you can hear her laughter even at the end of the street.. she has a big warm heart that is willing to help her friends in anyway possible.. and now she is taking up the challenge to not only help her friends but also to help others by becoming a nurse.. YUP! a nurse.. if there is anymore people as gorgeous as her becoming a nurse.. I'm sure a lot of guys are willing to be sick cos i know i would.. :P in my 3 years of knowing her.. she taught me that the love bond between us friends are very precious and that it will always be in our heart.. forever.. Pui Leng, you are an angel sent from heaven!! God bless you~




P.s: there is no particular reason for me to write this except to show you girls how much i appreciate you and our friendship.. and it's just a coincident that 5 out of 7 girls above are Christian.. and no, i don't have any grudge against any religious.. as for guys.. don't worry.. I'll make a list too.. just that the title wont be '7 guys who changed my life' cos it sounds gay... i wouldn't want people to think that it's my gay list..

good times always